Hurt

Softly I pad

From one end to the other

I trek silently

Trying not to get you angry

You scream, you yell

I take it all

It hurts but what can I do

You are my elder

I have to listen

I try to shove it away

To go o like I never hurt

But it’s hard

People see thru me

Why do you insist on this hurt

Can’t you let your anger out another way

A way that doesn’t kill me inside

All the time it seems

I ache, I scream

Deep inside my soul, my body

And you don’t seem to care

My hurt is from myself, from you

I want to go, to stop this

But instead I stay

I let the hurt control me

When I shouldn’t

I let you control me

Though I should control myself

You wonder why I dislike you

Why I cry at the littlest hurt

Did it ever occur to you,

That you’re the reason

The reason I refuse to give up

Why though I keep falling

I keep standing up once again

My soul aches for healing

For this hurt to stop

But no matter how much I plead

No matter how much I pray, I hope

I still hurt

I want to stop

I want to heal

I need to leave

But when you have nowhere to go,

What does a person do

No money, no place

No security, no lover

This is a reason

A reason I hurt so much

My own cowardness is another

I need to have courage

To leave this hurt behind

But it’s all I know

My siblings got out

Why can’t I

Why do I let this hurt control me

Why do I let you control me

I need help

Others than coworkers

Or friends to help

To show me the way

To control my own life

My own destiny

Give me strength

To stop this hurt

Oh Lord, oh gods

Please

Let me leave you

Leave the hurting

The crying, screaming

Aching bruises behind

My life is my own

My hurt is my own

Let me deal

Don’t deal for me

So Go!

This hurt, this hopelessness

Go!

Disappear forever

My heart hurts

Knowing it’s time

Time to spread my wings

Time to grow by myself

But while it hurts

It brings joy

Joy knowing I can get over this

Joy knowing I will make it thru

I used to hurt

I still do

But this time

This time

I will go

I will stand up and say

“No more!

Go! I’m done!

Hurt someone else

As for me, go!”

I will leave

With a peaceful heart

My past behind me

A future before me

Of my own making

So try your best

I dare you!

I will leave

The hurt, the past

The future

A part of me

Never will I give it up again

I learned my lessons

I won’t let you or the hurt

Be the main part of my life

I will become my own person

I will build my own future

I will and no hurt, no part of you

Will stay with me

No part