Once Again

Once upon a time

You were my life

I loved you more than self

With dreams of you as my wife

You said you’ll never leave

You’ll never do me wrong

Then how come you made it hard to breathe

Once you were gone

You broke my heart

Then tried to ease my pain

Inside my hate for you grew

As I tried to forget your name

So I moved on

Hard but it had to be

Fell in love with another

In belief that she was the one for me

I loved her more than you

Thoughts of us always together

Almost inseparable

Then time ended our forever

She left me cold

Left me sore

Left me hurt

Just like you did before

Never was I the same

I became a new man

Once again standing in the rain

Trying to hurt as many as I can

Still you couldn’t let go

So you called me one night

I hung up on your face

With a heart as cold as ice

And I never regretted it

And I still don’t till this day

If I could I would go back and hang up in every way

Cause you hurt me

Then you chose to hurt me some more

I even forgave you

When my heart was so sore

Then again you did me wrong

Eyes full of tears

Found it hard to be strong

So your love I began to fear

Still in pain

Some part of me wanted things to be the same

The way they used to be

When you used to call my name

We once were good together

I must admit

Still the thought of letting you back in my life

Made me sick

I hated you

But you were the only one I wanted to be with

Still the memories of your pain

Made it hard for my decision to shift

Dammit I loved you!

How could you break my heart

Giving up on love

With my world torn apart

Your pain was the same that made me smile

And to think I wanted you to carry my child

The night we made love

Was the night you made lies

Said you’d always love me

Then the next night you made me want to cry

Then you wanted a second chance

You wanted to return

Wanted me to love you again

Too late my bridge had burned

Plus the pain of the one who did me wrong after I let you go

I took that anger out on you to ease my soul

Tired I was

Of being done wrong

Hands began to cramp

From writing sorrows songs

I swear I hated you

I swear I wanted nothing to do with you

It even felt just as good when you told me I was hurting you

Cause the way I felt

Was that you were hurting your self

You did me wrong

I never gave you any help

Your mother even said you were wrong

It was your fault we didn’t last that long

Cause you thought like always I’d take you back

But I had different plans, plans of getting you back

Love did me cold

You helped along the way

You brought the snow

That made me not want to stay

So hard I wanted you again

I even tried just being friends

But the pain you brought upon my life

Made me feel it had to end

Living in despair

Hurting you without a care

I would now make it hard for you to breathe

Still I was haunted by your stare

Numb, I never felt bad for the things I said

I could stand tall in your tears bloody red

You gave up trying to win me over

Cause you could see

How my heart was getting colder

Then today you looked my way

You never had to say

What I could see

In your face

I don’t know what it was

But I felt something old

Something in you

Before you did me cold

I can’t explain

Just what it is

But for the first time

My love for you is returning once again