It is endless,

As this thing thrashes its way out,

Shredding my guts,

With intense stabbing pains,

Yet their is no blood,

No wounds,

Then things become like ice,

Get covered with blankets,

As skin begins to strain,

Shaking begins,

Everything aches,

Go into a shower,

Water comes down on me,

Clears my head,

As the water boils a freezing skin,

Don't remember when it started,

How I let things get this bad,

My legs give out,

Fall to the porcelian,

Begin to sob,

For so long that time becomes irrelevant,

I claw at my skin,

Rip at flesh as it should mean something,

It doesn't mean anything,

Soon I'll need a fix,

The pain is too much,

I'm not strong enough,

Withdraw into myself as nobody need see this,

Nobody need see my life fading away,

I close my eyes,

To block everything out,

It is endless,

As this thing rips its way out,

Shredding my guts

Yet their is no blood,

No wound,

Then I realize it is endless,

It does keep going,

Until I let it end.