I feel so high
Feel so mesmerized
So safe and calm and controlled.
Powerful and unstoppable.

The sounds of a distant laugh is alien to me.
The only thing that is normal now is this
This moment this every little detail that stands forth.
Mind me not my cruel actions and only me.

The edge is so clear to me now
If I fall down I will fall hard.
But how do I know if I’m away from the edge.
Will the wind rushing by my head like a thousand small bees?

I know not the flatness of the earth
But the lifeless bumps and holes
Just like life they are so uncertain.
Sometime hard and untrue
But nevertheless;
Soothing and patient.

Living life on a razors edge
Love is what makes me weak but strong.
Self loathing is a mask.
Purity to all that is living .

I make a stand on this edge.
I take a final breath
And let the wind take me.