The theater is dark. Quiet sobbing is heard from center stage. A soft female voice is heard, as if murmuring to herself. A spot light fades into existence, stage right. It slowly sweeps left, passing then finding center. A girl is found seated, her face in her hands. Her knees are held tightly to her chest. She has a messy pony tail and gym clothes on. Eye liner has smeared onto her lower lids.

Why? Why again? She chokes and sobs. What did I do? What did I do, God? Was I not good enough? Fail, fail fail… I can’t do anything else, can I? What am I doing wrong? Am I misusing your gifts? Or did I have none to begin with. Oh, pain, sweet pain… She scratches slowly at her upper thighs before giving up. I made too many promises…but I wish I could break them all… just once… She sobs again. I just want someone to hold me… To whisper sweetly in my ear… to shush me… Say ‘dearest’ and ‘darling’… To mother me almost… I asked you all these years for love from a man. I’ve had that- many times over. She snorts in disdain and then hiccups and coughs. But… all those years… all those prayers… I should have asked to love myself. Cries. I look at myself… and can only sneer! My hair is disgusting… my shoulders are huge… my legs are all wrong… my breasts are too damn small… Why?! Why God?! Why can’t I?! Sobs violently. I can’t… I can’t… Her eyes glint wildly. She rummages through a nearby box that appears next to her. Gauze can be seen in it. She takes out a shining object- a razor blade. She kisses it softly before holding it to her wrist. Slowly, she cuts down. She lovingly caresses-with the most care she has ever given herself- each arm with the blade only once. Red blood flows out.

The setting melts away. It is not a stage, but the messy room of a young teenaged girl. Blood flows out of her wounds rapidly. Her eyes dim and a small smile plays around her lips. Nearby a will is seen. Just before the light leaves her eyes, a phone rings. She slides her eyes over. A name is read and a lone tear falls down the still-smiling face. Her head rolls back.

Exeunt