Fleeing, skittering, from my sight
dreams and hopes I built high
burning, crashing, forever gone
each time I await their goodbye
It’s never too long
dreams desert me when they can
and they leech me of what hope
I have left
in this pink corpse.

My life is the blunted sword
No point
Point
Dull dreams dull
Hide my hopes in burnished bronze
swallow as they scratch my throat
Bitter bile soothes
the sores
the pain.

Copper in my mouth
fusty with old vomit
but it feeds me, keeps me
from the pain
of disappointed dreams
unhappy hopes
Decaying tongue, it’s all I have
dances so you know the truth
Dark heart

and yet
fortified with diamond and steel
clenching hard on my hopes
so I no longer feel
feel the pain they inflict
I cannot build the castle
Castle on the water
Sinks
Dies
Dreams always die
Die die and take my soul with them
to the depths of my demise.

They laugh, they curse, they say it cannot be
Cannot be
How can one have no dreams?
No goals?
No future?
Scrying with my tears I have seen
the bleak fate
Love marries hate
Dreams strangle the aching heart
bruise and shatter
The king’s men give up
Lost cause
Dreams sit me on the wall
the wall that fails me
Crumbles

My sword hates my body
as my lips hate my dying soul
Weld those lips
save me from the dreams
the hopes
those that would defeat me
always defeat me
Dreamless, hopeless, I am saved
Crucify the confidence
to save eternal soul.