Thinking in Circles

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This isn’t right,

I have no right to be feeling like this.

It was your choice,

I never told you how I felt…

I did. And you told me that you felt the same,

But why the sudden change?

One day we were close, close enough to be looked upon as an “item” by others,

Yet not by us.

But then the next day, you were distant,

Not being your usual self.

I didn’t push, thinking that if you wanted to tell me you would,

Like every other time.

But this time you didn’t. You stayed away, not talking.

I was worried about you, thinking maybe that you and your dad got in another fight,

But then I find out that you have a girlfriend.

And I didn’t find out from your own lips-Oh no,

I found out from a friend that I haven’t spoken to in months.

Not from you who I talk to everyday, but from her.

Ok so we go to different schools, that’s no reason not to tell me.

You told me about all the other girls you liked,

You even told me about the girl you liked who was me.

But you didn’t tell me about her?

I’m not angry because you have a girlfriend,

I’m angry because I didn’t hear it from you.

I’m confused because you were talking to me about asking me out.

Maybe I am angry that you have a girlfriend who isn’t me.

But the aggravation stems from the fact that you didn’t tell me about her.

I don’t like the way you can do this to my head,

You’re the only one who can make me feel so confused with feelings that I thought I had pegged.

You mess me up, spin me in circles, make me feel safe then strip me of that feeling.

The worst thing is I think you know you have that power,

And the more I think about it the more stupid I feel for falling for you.

You struck me as a flirt. Telling me about all the girls who liked you,

But then acting the sweet caring guy.

I think now, that I was a complete fool, for letting u trick me.

But you didn’t exactly trick me did you?

It’s difficult to explain. My thoughts are all abuzz,

I don’t believe that you are like that but all evidence seems to pint that way doesn’t it?