Fading Nightmare

There is a loneliness,

Not caused by

Friends' apathy or family's fury,

But rather by him,

By his abandonment.

And you miss him,

So much,

That just the memory of

His searing hot lips

On the sensitive skin of your throat

Tasting the pulse hidden there

With his tongue

Sends your world spinning.

Dreaming of him at night

Leaves you breathless

And hungry for him.

All you need is his touch

To light up your face.

But it will never happen.

Instead his lips meet hers-

The jealousy drives you insane.

He's too nice to intentionally flaunt her;

He can't help it- he thinks he's in love.

So you slink back into the shadows,

Hiding your hurt and pain,

Feigning indifference,

And let the loneliness overtake you-

Again…

But then he's there,

Kissing your fingers,

Saying he loves you.

It must be a dream.

Suddenly his lips find yours,

Frantically taking them in a kiss,

Somehow still gently caressing

It's real, he's here

And you're responding,

Before you realize,

You're kissing him back,

Weaving your fingers through his soft hair

As he pulls you closer,

Hands on your hips

Broken heart forgotten,

Ecstacy rising in you,

Because you understand

He's always been yours.

Closing your eyes against,

Turning you back on,

Lonliness-

It's just a fading nightmare.

And the tears?

A forgotten memory.