My Eulogy 3-31-06

note to reader: this is NOT a suicide note, or cry for help

by any means.

The Life of "beloved" me:

was not full of happiness, nor tragedy

yes of confusion, scars,

and people who drove me insane.

but this life had a cacophony of words behind

the melody of unrequited love and unattained peace

I lived a life of darkness,

insomatic and empty.

'Her pain slowly killed her- inside and out-

worked through her heart, into her marrow

to her fingers and toes;

the silence drove her crazy;

lead her to the deed

which cemented her insanity

and in a sick, twisted way made her feel complete.

As if some fiend angelical stooped with

warped daggar to save her from herself.

Yet that winged-demon of light

missed, skipped a beat...

which led this life to dazed reality- of how

it was bound to die

-bound to wither

-bound to cry

this dye of ruby collided with sapphire eyes

of lust and a mashed dischord

screamed to move on from this lair she'd

ducked into

and screamed to leave her past behind

the battle scars changed, with out her

strength to move on,

she slaughtered herself today...

-it was long time coming-

awaited and known

you stumbled upon her two days too late

now she is beyond a great gate of pearls and fire

stranded by her on lust and first, and last, hate.