Do I Want To Let You In?

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I want control, I want to breathe.

I don’t want goose-bumps on my skin.

I want to stay firmly on my feet.

I don’t want to let you win.

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You’re strong in mind and body.

So strong I think you stole

some of that from me because,

with you, I’ve no control.

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(control is overrated)

my mind says without a care.

As you touch me my lungs contract

as if they cannot find the air.

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(breathing’s overrated)

it’s not so bad giving in

to these feelings of euphoria

as your touch tingles on my skin.

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(goose-bumps aren’t that bad)

At least a part of me has found

some sense of delusion

as you sweep me from the ground.

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(solid footing is overrated)

as much as patience is a sin.

If this is a game about control,

hands down, you would win.

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(winning’s overrated)

I can’t make up my mind.

You make me question what I want

and make balance hard to find.

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Do I want control? Do I want to breathe?

Do I want goose-bumps on my skin?

I can’t answer these ‘til I figure out

if I want to let you in.