My heart cannot take anymore neglect
One more mistake and my life will leave my body
And my feelings will free-flow from my mouth

I am depressed, and I have been for awhile
I know that I do things to push people away
But for one reason or another, I continue to do these things anyways

I no longer find joy in the what I've been living for
For going on three years
And the only thing that matters, is that I'm barely fighting this...

It's almost five years later
And I still slip from time to time
I remember when I said it was only a one time thing...

I just wanted to feel important again...
I think I just wanted to go back in time...

But it's 2007, I'm here in the present
I'm here with my door locked,
And my eyes are glazing over...

I believe in second starts
But there's no denying that my past has impacted me today
Worse yet it has done so, in an unbelievably negative way

My girlfriend is so sweet to me
But she really doesn't mean a thing to me
I hope that's just my way of keeping my distance

Winters always been terrible for my mental state
And the fact I'm getting older and nothing has changed
Its all too much to bear this time around

I think it's too late to change my past mistakes
And I keep making more everyday that I'm awake
People told me it was a long shot, but I've always been one to find out for myself

I'm praying to God
Hoping things will improve
And that I'll come from behind, and catch up to the pack

I always get motivated when I start to get down
But it only comes in short bursts
Then I'm back in the same place

I'm hoping one time it will stick,
And maybe I can find someone to help me out of here
To push me through the dark times, and into the Promise Land

I want one more chance, I know I've squandered many opportunities before,
But I'm just asking for one last attempt
And hoping this time it will be different.