I am beaming

My white dress flowing behind me

I can’t hold back tears

As I gaze into your beautiful face.

You give me a promise

And I accept it

I give you a promise

And you do the same

You give me a ring

To show your love

And you seal your vow

With a kiss

I am crying

Black tears against my vampire face

My black dress is torn

And barely protects me

I am unsheltered

I am unprotected

I never thought it would come to this

I never thought I could be so dependent on one man

I feel blood

Pouring down my thighs

As I birth an unresponsive child

They take her away from me

And ignore my pleas

I just want to hold her

Tell me she is alright

More blood

And another still body

This time I try to reach out

Take her from the nurse’s arms

But the doctor holds me down

Why should she have the right to hold my babies

Before me

Black tears

Black tears

I rip at my black hair

Give them back to me

They tell me they are trying to save them

I just want them here

With me

I carry one still body in my right arm

Another in my left

I look at the things that I had created

That had died

My eyes are stained

Forever black by my tears

I scream when I see you

How could you have left me alone

Look at what you have done

You have killed my babies

I break the vows we took

When I was so young

So easily influenced by the crowd

You look at me as if I have gone crazy

And I have

Because you killed my girls

You killed me

So I lie here on my bed

And gaze at the bodies

Of my fallen angels

I wish I were an angel

So I could fall too.