Only now have I realized

the thing between you and me

is pretend

maybe it was real for a moment or two

but i can't give you a second chance

the things you did

the lying, the cheating

how it pierced through my heart

stabbed it over and over again

just like a dart being thrown

again and again at the velvet circles.

It wasn't just once in a while,

but constantly,

daily.

Suppressing emotions

doesn't work

doesn't help

that's what I've learned.

What is true love?

if there is such a thing,

will God be kind enough

to let me know

such a thing?