Only Yesterday

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It seems like only yesterday that he was here...that everyone was "happy" and we were an "ideal" family. My parents bragged about their children to everyone. To the public's eye, we were perfect. (We never really were).

I knew that something was wrong with my brother. Junior year, and his grades started slipping. His clothes were all black. He stopped talking to my parents. He stopped talking to his friends. I was the only one that he spoke to, which shocked me. What sixteen year - old guy wants to talk to his fourteen year - old sister?

It seems like only yesterday that he said to me, "Things have changed, Sis. Nothing can ever stay the same. Not in this place. Not here." I never really understood what he was talking about. They were just words that I didn't want to hear. Nothing was wrong. Everything was fine.

It seems like only yesterday that I saw him cry for the first time. He was starring at a family picture that we always had in our living room. Just sitting on the floor, the glass cracked, starring at it. I didn't know how the glass broke and I didn't really care. (At the time.)

It seems like only yesterday that I found his body on the floor. He wasn't breathing, he wasn't moving, and his long, dark hair covered most of his face.

It seems like only yesterday that we placed his body in the ground and I said good - bye to my brother forever. I never wondered "Why me?" I only watched as the people surrounded the hole in the ground. I could only picture the blood on the floor of his room, the blood dripping from a gun shot to the head.

It seems like only yesterday that I found the note in the back of the picture of our family that we always had in our living room.

"Dear Sis,
No one's ever perfect.
Something needed to change.
Your brother."

Please review! Thanks so much if you do! This was really hard for me to write. This isn't really about my brother, but about a combination of people I know who have, or almost have, committed suicide. I just thought it would make more sense in an older brother figure. Thank you so much if you chose to review. Comfort would be great right now.

Hell, I need a hug.