Was there ever a time I wanted to live my lie alone
A day or two goes by and I wonder silently why?

The time you finally said goodbye was the time
That when spoken without me knowing gave me the daunting feeling
I'm never alone

Never was the vow I vowed to myself
A moment in life where life is no longer
I am dead on this earth

And now I wonder, why?

When the timing that was wrong, I wondered if I was wrong myself
Would that ever be tolerated?
(Never was the promise I promised myself)

So by the days end, I wait for morning to rise
For it to just fall, like all the times before
I trust that I will fall, like all the others

I promise myself solemnly that I will always
Be alone, without the feel or love I know
would follow me back into my dwelling
And never my home.

Will you truly follow me home?

I wonder now the purpose of my words
I question the existence on my soul again
I realize I may never know who I really am
I fear that my selfishness will take me over
And never let me go

So I ask you to let me go
For you will never follow a demon
To a so called night that I live in
The darkness, the only haven I have
And still, it leaves me dauntless
Ephemeral to the touch I know should never be felt

For never was the promise
I promised myself

2/2/07