You Won’t Have My Smile

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I can’t be around you

Unless I’m in a good mood;

with the anger inside me,

I couldn’t help being rude.

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Your ‘subtle’ insults,

your disapproving glare.

Every time you speak,

I wish you weren’t there.

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I have to be in a state

where you cannot tear me down.

My walls must be up

for me to ignore your frown.

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Your judgments are unfair

and they prick me like a pin.

I’m obligated to love you,

but you will never win.

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There’s one too many scars

for me to care what you say.

You must enjoy hurting me,

but you will not have your way.

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You won’t have my tears.

You won’t have my smile.

I want to unleash my anger

but I’ll just wait here for awhile.

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You are my sister.

I’m obligated to love you,

but I do not like you

and I won’t smile to commend you.