I.

I'm fading
expecting
so much.
hoping for
everything
to be perfect
(o be just right)
but then
you go and
crash
all my happiness
and change
it all

&
twist everything
beyond
what i can see

&
I can't
understand anything
at all.

II.

There's nothing
in my heart
that won't
say yes to you
because no
doesn't seem
to exist
anymore

(since the first time
you kissed me)
and i couldn't function
or think
at all.

III.

Of course
I'll be fine
I won't break
(not in front
of you)

I'll take
my tears
and hide them
and fake those
(wannabe)
pretty smiles
for you
because i dont want
t o h u r t y o u
at all.

IV.

please don't
break fake
shake me
don't let me
.fall.
I don't know
how to get
up
at all.

V.

I love you
so much
and
most of the
time
i wonder
if you
even
know the half
of it
at all.

VI.

I'm so
self conscious
that
the mere thought
of you
still liking her
sends me to tears
all full day
and it takes you
that day
and
a half hour
out of the
next
to call
and find out
i'm still crying
(just for you
and over me)

&
you believe me
when i tell you
a lie
(they got high)
which isn't why
i'm crying
at all.

VII.

Yes
I love you
but right now
my heart
can't take being
split in
two
And just
thinking
about having to
c h o o s e
is tearing me
apart
and killing my
desires
(killing my desires)
but the right thing
hurts
and it hurts
e v e n m o r e
to know that
i have to
choose
or else i can't
have love
at all.

VIII.

Proving to me
(that I'm not
number one)
over and over
then trying
to fix
everything
with those few words
that seem
to make your world
go round
(that you seem to
think
will solve all your
problems)
won't work anymore
and for once
I'm not letting
my heart
go crazy and my stomach
twist and churn
and
I hate to say this
but i think
I'm getting over you
and falling
further and further
and deeper and deeper
in love with
him.