This life can’t get any worse for me, I am

Here

I am cold and

Shivering

Life

Is a bitch to me at this moment in the time. I can’t say

For sure what is going wrong. I have an

Exact picture of what my life should be. but

I can’t get to it through the depression and the

Sadness and the lack of

Trust I put in my self. On the

Outside I smile but

On the inside I weep and cry my self to sleep until i

Hate my self. This life can’t get

Any worse for me. I cannot breathe it hurts too much. My mind is

Reeling and I cannot eat. I feel like

Death has come to greet me and has given me my death warrant but

I am not allowed to die. I

Cannot feel

Anything even though I try with all my heart. I have

Never felt like

This before and I cannot

Take it, I cannot understand it.

All my life I have felt different. I have tried to be a

Kleptomaniac, a schizophrenic, an

Emo. Anything that was different. but

I have have never felt pain like

This.

I have never felt like this before

But now I do I can safely say:

It’s a bitch to me- is it to you?