My darling,

I never told you secret. Not once.
Not during, and not after.
It’s safe with me.
That’s all you need to know.

I know you.
I walked with you once, upon many many dreams.
But you are no prince charming, my sweet illusion.
I know. You fear the mortality of a promise.

Did I ever tell you that I thought about you
Every time it rained?
I saw spirit there
In each luminous, earth-bound raindrop.

But I no longer desire
To see those eyes that see me,
And deny it completely.
I exist, you fiend. Or have you forgotten?

I am pressing delete on every file,
Tearing up every page
Of anything with you in it, because I am
So sick of seeing your name. Everywhere.

It’s time for a revolution.
It’s time for a change.
You’re leaving soon, going far away to
Somewhere where my mind cannot follow.

And I am so, so happy.
So happy that you cannot reach me here
When you are away, so far away.
Take your shadow-fingers out of my brain, my love.

Let me go.

We have both perished in this life
And have moved on. And
As we speak, I am being Reborn to
Something new. Something clean.

So take your sickness.
Take your disease away from here, leave with your
Leprosy and your Multiple Personality Disorder
And go.

I love you. I hate you.
I am rid of you.
Go.
Go far.

Live and prosper
And be not afraid
For I remember my promise.
And you need nothing more from me.

Nevermore,
S.
(1.11.07)

Requiem Eterna.