“I just wanted to say goodbye.” My voice came out confident though I felt myself drowning in fear. Her eyes glared back and gained an evil glint. “You think you can just leave me here and find a new best friend? No one, no one will ever love you like I do.” Her voice was soft as silk and as smooth as honey once again. I closed my eyes and prayed for strength. “Someone already does Ana, and I want to be free of your manipulative games.” “Free? You’re joining a cult that’s against me, and you think it’ll actually make you happy?” “I do. He loves me.” My heart was full to the brim with love and my life was complete without her in my life…deep down I knew it was time to let this friend go. “You’ll never be able to survive without me Jenna, never. At the first sign of trouble you’re going to fall apart and come crawling back to me.” “He’ll be there to catch me if I stumble.” “Ha, he’ll leave you just like all the others did.” She grinned at the thought of my destruction. “He keeps his promises Ana, something you never did.” “How can you say that? You’re thin aren’t you?” A quiet voice whispered in my heart, giving me courage. “You promised me happiness, you gave me depression. You said I’d be skinny, popular, and wanted by all; instead I was sickly, disliked, and a freak. You promised you’d make me happy with my body, but I began to hate myself even more. You promised health and offered insomnia, self-hatred, and malnutrition. You lied Ana, and I don’t want to be a part of your games anymore.” “You’ll regret leaving me Jenna, you’re worthless without me. You don’t mean anything to anyone, and you’re so far from beautiful. Look at all the weight you’ve gained since you started fighting me.” Inside I cringed and wanted to take her back into my life, to fall for her meal plans, 3 a.m. sit-ups and 20 degree jogs. But as he whispered my name, I knew I had to let go. “I’m beautiful, and I’m a child of God. I don’t need you to define me. Goodbye Anorexia, I’m going to miss you, but I’ve found a happier way to live.” I turned to walk away and moved toward his light. “Jenna no! Look, I’ll let you eat more, and if you just eat a little less, everyone will love you again! You’ll have a boyfriend again Jenny, one who will never ever call you fat.” My steps slowed, but I continued toward his voice. “Jenny come back!” “No.” I whispered. This would be the last time I would let her control my life.