You and me are just change in a pocket

you
look
at me,
an electric, purple beam appears
invisible to the security camera
that quietly zaps ideas as they zing by
i wonder
inside
me,
what
you
think of
me,
and I feel sad.
maybe you think
i exist only to displace water in a bathtub
like a gun only exists to kill
or straw only exists to burn.
in this (that) moment
i was the sun,
thoughts revolving around me
and nothingness at my back
thoughts had made
me
blind
(even a cloud can block a sunbeam)
because when I came to
there was only an empty pocket
where
you
where standing