Happiness

Is something I will never find.

I've been searching for years,

But it will never be mine.

Despair

Darkness inescapable

Is all that I have,

And don't try to convince me

Someday It will change,

Because you just can't understand

The hopelessness

That has sucked me down,

A whirlpool that never ends.

A tunnel I can't get out of,

With no light around a bend.

The end -

It is only death

And nothing beyond.

I would do anything to find life and love,

But this living hell will never end,

Cuz I'm someone you don't even think of.

Someone you don't even stoop to insult,

Cuz I'm no one, I'm just dirt.

Demons in my head

Torment me at night

And with the day comes emptiness,

Not light.