Cold and Dark

It’s dark here where you left me…And I don’t think there’s a way out.

I’ve been scratching at the back you turned on me…because I don’t know what else to do. I’m trying to claw my way back to your heart.

When you’re as high as we were, there’s nowhere to go but down…

Somehow, I thought we’d stay suspended in that wonderment forever. I thought you’d always be there to soften every blow and kiss every scar and wipe every tear.

Until the day you shut the door…

And left me in the cold and the dark and I keep clawing and clawing and crying and nothing’s moving. Nothing’s changing.

Everything’s staying the same.

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you…

It’s echoing through my exhausted mind and I’ve never been more confused in my life. This wasn’t supposed to happen.

This was never supposed to happen.

You used me.

You used me.

You used me.

My brain is trying to process this…Trying to make sense of the realization I’ve stumbled upon while I’m scratching my name into the door you’ve shut in my face.

There are splinters under my nails but I can’t feel them anymore.

Nothing can distract me from the pain that’s in my mind…

My soul…

My heart…

I was a Band-Aid.

Nothing more than a quick fix for a problem that runs deeper than you’ll ever know…You don’t know what we could’ve had.

We could’ve floated forever.

It used to be so bright, so wonderful, so amazing, so astonishing…Everything was new.

I felt like I was born again and I was savoring every new breath you were allowing me to breathe.

Then you dropped me.

You let me fall.

And now I’m here, trapped.

Your old discarded Band-Aid…And now you’re off to find a new one.

But I’ll keep scratching.

I’ll keep trying to claw my way out.

Because I’m scared.

Because I’m hurt.

Because it’s dark here where you left me.

And I don’t think there’s a way out.