How to?

Is it done this way?
I was wondering for a long time about it
Because so far I was forcing it to merge,
Never easily.
And even when it is out
It hid a million stories,
Of life taken with every breath
The tears that would rain
And heavens would drown.
I was wondering for long time about it,
Why I want it so bad and can't live without it?
And why misery weaves threads between its beginning and end?
Please teach me how to start the end,
To tie a knot in the merging thread
And grab it with all means
To merge a new me
Please, teach me how it is done right?
How it can be truly bright?
Not just a façade to hide
Please tell me,
Is this how to…..smile?

M.M.K

23-2-2007