Fear

I watch and look

I think, I listen

and more and more

I slowly find

that what I see

makes me afraid

All this time, and you'll never see if I stay silent

The life I know

is slowly ending

life is timed

like my own

but there is nothing

I can do to

stop it

Did you think I was completely oblivious to your "hidden" meanings?

I hear your voices

shouting

screaming

escalating

untill I join in the fray

and make the tear wider

Just letting this foundation crumble

I sit by and watch

as friends fall down

unsure of what to do

as they make decisions

I could not consider

Am I the one who should right this wrong?

My tongue is sharp

my words cold as ice

and I am not unaware

that I am the one to blame

when you become

bitter towards me

Is this what I wanted when I said those things?

Another day

comming to a close

I want to fight

I want to cry

but all I do

is nothing

What is it you want of me, can't you see I'm failing?

The abstraction

of love

of hate

of pain

each more

superficial than

the last

Do you really expect me to believe in your god?

This world that surrounds me

that binds me

that makes me want to find

something beyond

this broken play

of dolls on strings

and raised, ripped

wings

Do you remember every day, the choices we made?

I watch and look

I think, I listen

and more and more

I slowly find

that what I see

makes me afraid

And in the end, if I can't watch you, then who can I turn to?