the morning after:

i have a philosophy

exam on ethics

in one hour

& i'm crouched

over the toilet

dry heaving

pepto-bismol

trying to get

tea water

something down

telling myself

no more never agains

this time never again

& i'm still so vain

have to put makeup on

before i leave

dizzy sweaty

& shaking

smelling like whiskey

& cigarettes

in the same clothes

as yesterday