concealed affection

maybe i’m a coward without solid morale,
who only watches you from the bleachers
and smiles like an idiot whenever you score a goal.

maybe i’m a nerd without perfect personality,
who loves knowing more and more about you
and gets hyped up whenever your name is mentioned.

maybe i’m just a lame girl in this howling mob,
cheering for you like crazy without checking
whether i still look good or not with sweats all over my face.

maybe i’m someone unnoticed, but
i’m the one who shouts your name the loudest.
i’m the one who smiles genuinely between flowing fake masks.

even though you’ll probably never know,
it is i who always watches the sun rise and set,

as patiently as ever.

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