atrocious – adj. Exceedingly cruel or evil.

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It’s a strange state of mind.

In myself, I find

Things that seem to defy

The way I should reply.

You think I am “good.”

I know what I should

Do, and I should not

Fight this was I fought

Against normal and relity.

But I find my mentality

Will not admit

These broken plays to fit

Into my life’s mold,

A life I try to hold

But changes every day.

I tell you, Miss May,

You are just the first to see

The atrociousness in me.