Behind Broken Eyes, a Life fanfic

I’m not okay

Oh, how I wish I could

Tell you that

But I can’t

You’ve got too much

Riding on me,

Everything I locked

Behind broken eyes

How can I break?

How can I let go

When none of you

Want to know?

I’m falling apart

Splintering, shattering

But it’s hidden

Behind broken eyes

You can remember me

Happy, whole, safe

That’s not me anymore

I’m sad, missing, lost

But you can’t see it

You won’t see it

Because you can’t

Not behind broken eyes

I’m afraid, so afraid.

If I let you down,

What then?

Who will you boast of?

Who will you help?

Who will you believe in

If I desert you and hide

Behind broken eyes

You believe in me

Every dream I have

You know will come true

If I really want it

I wish I really did

I wish I really could

I wanted it all once

But my wanting is gone

Hidden, imprisoned

Lost forever

Behind broken eyes

Just something that came to me today. There are some many things I want for myself, some many things I dream of that I know I could have if I just try. Somehow, it seems almost harder to risk it knowing that everyone else has no problem believing that you’ll do it. If everyone believes and you fail, all you have left is a bunch of people who believed and were disappointed and the never disappearing reminder of your failure.

Anyway, please review.