and we lied and denied our real feelings

as we broke all the promises we swore we never made.

and you said We Can Still Be Friends

but I knew that this would be the bloody end…

i was moving far away and no one could save me

as I voluntarily disassociated myself from everything I knew was real –

just for one more opportunity for a future.

but I was lying (again) to myself.

i know that I can't make it to the end of the (black) rainbow –

the farther I chase it, the longer it grows.

and the more that it grows,

the more I realize that

I

Am

Lost