Spinning

I wonder…

How the earth spins

(and how I can get it to revolve around me)

Twirling like a ten year old excitedly showing off his new superhero cape

(“Look! I’m Superman! Or batman! Or any other self-possessed and self-described man who proudly wears his underwear outside his tights”)

Or maybe not…

(Then again, they do wear masks)

But it’s unsteady, giddy, and refreshing

(Grasping tightly and clenching at anything I can hold on to)

After all,

I’m just here for the ride

(Or am I?)

But that’s why it’s confusing –

Damn those forked roads I try to believe in

Banner signs telling lies

The ultimate supposed structure inevitably ensuing one’s demise

I try to believe

(I mean – I do believe)

And yet the cynics and the skeptics

Keep putting me

D

O

W

N

Which is why it’s a challenging, possibly impossible

Task to

Realize that I’m either here for

S O M E T H I N G

Or

Nothing

But I’ll keep on trying

(since you have to take the wrong roads to know that they are indeed… wrong)

I’ll keep on spinning

Dancing with the wind

My head sways in the same rhythm as my fantasies in which I hear the same

B.E.A.T

Beat.

Ba-dump

Ba-dump

BA –DUMP

(I think that’s my heart)

And I know one day it’ll stop

This trek, journey, trip, voyage, expedition, mission, compilation of my decisions.

Fate piling consequences and actions needing revisions

Silent Screaming

Bad Dancing

(and you just don’t how HOW bad it gets)

Curling

Hurling

Yearning

Churning

Whirling

Living through proofs that I am not just some sort of mindless underling

I guess ultimately

What I’m trying to say is that

It’s dizzying

But I can’t help it

Because living in the world that we live in

You know it’s bad

But you can’t help it

Because, finally, one day, you’ll realize

That you have to learn to love it

And what’s funny is that I already don’t need all that

Because

I’ve already love it

(A/N: I love performance poetry, and for a school speech, I performed this particular piece - my first one! I was so nervous, and yet I loved it. Gah, typing it in MS Word, it had the cooles format, but fictionpress won't let me indent my stanzas. It's either justify center or justify left - how restricting! I try to change the format in order not to lose the conversationalist tone in this piece, but gah... I'm just so infuriated with this site. I'll post the same poem, with the proper format, in my deviantART account in case anyone's curious. (Any takers?) Anyway, this was such a fun poem to perform. It's like a really long toungue twister in some parts

Please review. And if anyone else is into performance poetry, give a shout out! D