Lie in Wait

Why do I keep feeling this way?

Is it a curse for me?

Aren’t I allowed to have a smile on my face?

I know I’m still young, my life is still long

But what if I can’t handle it?

What if I give up?

I want to end it all but I have to wait

Time controls everything

My heart will surely mend

All I have to do is wait

Waiting in silence and in fear

Fear that I keep on hurting instead of healing

Living in silence, hiding away from people

Running away from reality and life

It’s the only thing that I can do

I’m a coward, I know

Not brave enough to take chances

But reality has hit me hard

It broke my heart several times

Almost impossible to mend

But all I have to do is wait

Wait for my heart to heal

Or to hurt even more

Because time controls everything

I can only wait