Well here you go...sorry for the long wait. I had a great time abaord though!

Saturday I sat home. Why did he send me flowers? Should I go? I called Felicity. She would know what to do, whom else would I call to talk about Sean.

“Hey!” Felicity said.

“Hey.” I said.

“Spill, what happened this time?” she asked me, I could almost see her face.

“He sent me more flowers. Sean wants me to meet him at seven by the playground! What does he want from me?” I asked her.

“I think he wants you back. The flowers, the following, and the fight! I mean why else unless he just wants to fuck with you.” Felicity replied.

“He doesn’t love me.” I told her, he couldn’t love me could he?

“Go over and find out why then. Caroline June Parker take charge for once. Just do something you won’t, be different. The question is not does he love you but do you still love him! And if so can you forgive him after all this pain that you’ve gone through?” Felicity yelled at me through the phone.

“I don’t know. I’ll call you tomorrow.” I told her

Did I still love him? Yes, I even kinda missed hanging out with him. He was fun in the conventional way but also the non-conventional way too. He had made me smile even though his jokes weren’t funny. He had been my first at everything, was I going to be his first love? But could I forgive him?

Inside Felicity and I sat listening to Kelly Clarkson’s, Since U been Gone playing on the radio. It was one song I actually knew. She was comforting me; she and Paul had made up their differences and now were boyfriend girlfriend. I was wondering if I could ever take Sean back, would I want to? He had used me after all, but then again I had used him too, so it really didn’t matter, did it?

“What’s that noise? It’s coming form outside” Felicity said getting up and going to the door. She turned down the radio and opened the door. There outside was Sean Stevens singing a… love song?

“He said he’d never sing let alone a love song.” I said following her. Now some of the neighbors came out to see him. Felicity was about to close the door but I walked out to listen. I think my heart swelled with a new and different emotion. He finished and every one clapped but stayed to watch, damn those nosey neighbors.

“Caro, I’m sorry about everything. I don’t think we should be fuck buddies. I want you around because you make me feel good. I stopped smoking and drinking because of you. Okay I did it fewer times than usual. But you make the sun and the stars brighter and I love the noises you make when were doing it.” I could hear the walking inside because of the things he was saying but I stayed to listened.

“I love the way your hair smells when it’s still wet. And I love the way you can act like your high when your not. I think, no I know, I love you Caroline! So please take me back. I even tried writing you a poem. I’m sorry about everything that happened. So will you be my girlfriend?” he asked finally.

“I…I…” I said. I don’t know did I still want him?

“Sean, leave her alone. Caroline get away from the door.” Felicity said closing it. Sean face looked sad, but he never looked sad, never.

“Do you think he meant it?” I asked her.

“I don’t know. Wanna go shopping tomorrow?” she trying to change the subject.

“No, I don’t feel like it.” I told Felicity, she looked sad

“Okay. What do you want to do then?” she asked kindly

“Nothing.” I said about to cry? I don’t think I love him anymore, so why was I crying?

“It’s okay.” Felicity said grabbing me and holding me in an uncomfortable hug.

“No it’s not. I don’t even know if I love him. What if I don’t then what do I do? Or what if I do? Where do we go from here, I do I pick up these fucking pieces?” I asked my mother and Anna peeking in to see if I was okay.

I walked with Liz and Hazel through the mall. They had dragged me out saying that I would become pasty and geekish. We walked into Macy’s; Danielle was there with Mark. Liz and Hazel glanced at each other then smiled at Mark.

“Hey Mark can we talk to you for a minute?” Hazel asked, see Danielle bristle at this question.

“Sure.” Mark said before Danielle could answer for him. They left leaving Danielle and I together, awkward.

“Hey.” Danielle said.

“Hi.” I said not looking at her

“How have you been?” she asked me, like she didn’t know

“Cut the bullshit. What do you want?” I asked annoyed with her

“I’m sorry about everything. I should been there for you but I wasn’t. I mean everything you went through, I’m your best friend! Can you forgive me?” Danni asked

“I…I…guess.” I said trying not to grin

“Good because I just want to tell you how I feel about you and Sean. I mean I thought that was a rumor. He’s an asshole who doesn’t deserve you. He’s a worthless piece of shit, I’ll get you some one who’s much better for you.” Danni told me, trying to be helpful.

“Don’t say that, I love him!” I told her, how could she be so mean…wait did I just say? I love Sean Stevens, I love him!

“What?” Danni, Liz Hazel and Mark asked her.

“I love Sean Stevens!”

We, my mother, Anna, Felicity and I sat on the beach. We had gotten here early so we could get the best seats for the fireworks. I walked around, but something, was it some one, was missing. We passed a few friends and played some games and these four hot guys watched us.

“Did it hurt?” he asked Felicity and me

“When we dropped from heaven? No it didn’t” I snapped the worst pick up line ever. Felicity had blushed though making me blush just a little. As we walked away I saw Liz. She was walking toured us. She smiled but then looked down at the little girl next to her who had hidden behind her.

“Hey guys this is my cousin Margo. I’m babysitting for my Aunt. She wants “alone” time with her husband. I think we all know what they’re doing. Why can’t they just…” Liz said beginning to rant on for a bit.

“Okay, we’ll see you around.” Felicity said. It was now getting late and we got off the boardwalk, my mother had half way dressed. She looked like Anna in her biki only older.

“Caro, I thought you should know that…ah…” looking at the chairs that were next them, they weren’t theirs.

“Mother every one knows how old you are! Now let’s just try to enjoy the fireworks.” I said getting annoyed why had they been giving me looks?

“Well I’m sure Sean misses….” Anna said looking at my annoyed face. I sat down, I missed Sean I realize that I do, I really do miss him. The dark enclosed us as we waited for the fireworks to begin. I turned to see who was laughing so loud when I saw Sean. He was with another girl, but why had he set me flowers and why did he sing a love song? I had to get away far away, I guess that answered me question, I still loved him. Before I could get anywhere Sean had seen me, our eyes stood still locked in each other’s gaze.

“Caro where are you going?” my mother asked, the first firework went off.

“Caroline, don’t go!” Sean voice said as I stared at the lights in the sky.

“Why shouldn’t I? I just can’t be around you, I still…” I began were we going to do this in front of every one?

“What does that mean? Why can’t you be around me?” Sean demanded people were looking from the fireworks to us.

“That means if you mean what you said then why are…”

“That’s my sister! Why can’t you believe me? Caro I’ve told you the truth!”

“When? I don’t remember you telling me the truth!” I told trying hard to remember. He looked good to look at, why was he always such a jerk?

“When I said I…”

“That doesn’t count, you just to sleep with me again!” I yelled blushing just a little. He was serious when he had said “I love you”? But then…

“If I wanted that then I could be with other girls!” Sean said looking at me strait in the eyes. So there had been more, he had used me right?

“Oh, well it wouldn’t be the first time that you went behind some one’s back! Dawn, Blair were there other?” I demanded, we would have to do this sooner or later.

“It’s the past. I want you now not any others. They don’t matter anymore, I was fool. I didn’t see but after you left…”

“Who the hell do you think you are? You got everything you wanted!” I yelled running, green fireworks filling the air. I would run to the safety of the boardwalk he would watch the fireworks with his family. Purple, blue, red, white, green, yellow fireworks explode as I see Sean Stevens running after me and half the beach watching. I stood lengths away from Sean.

“What do you want from me?” he yelled over the explosions. I thought for a second he might cry, I stepped closer to him and he me.

“You already know!” I yelled back

“What do you mean? I don’t know what you want of me anymore. I want you and only you Caroline!” Sean said coming closer

“You just want my body.” I stated poking him in the chest.

“No, no, no! I want everything.” Sean said poking me back, I almost smiled.

“Are you sure? Because you say a lot of things Sean.” I said, then some one on a bike whizzed passed us. I was pushed into Sean, he caught me.

“I’ll never let you fall. I love you Caroline.” Sean told me hugging me. We looked at the fireworks, as the lights flashed across our faces we kissed.

The End