Tell me

...why this pain is so hard to get rid of
...why he had to cause me to cry almost everyday

...why my heart hurts when I see him leaving me here in hell
...why does my heart leap for joy at every glance or word or touch he gives me

...why I dream I am in his arms every night like it never happened
...why I open my eyes I am in a never ending nightmare

...why the home I live in symbolizes my very own hell on earth
...why yet when he comes around it seems like heaven on earth

...why I cant seem to stop thinking about what I did or said wrong
...why I think about how I could have convinced him to turn back around

...why I cant seem to break his barrier and find out how he truly feels
...why He doesn't find me worthy of knowing the true him inside

...why I love him with every part of my being
...why He doesn't find me worthy of loving at all

...why I think such horrible things about myself
...why I think so highly of other people

...why I cant ever find the answers to any of my questions
...why more and more just keep flowing through my thoughts

...why I look in the mirror and wish I was someone else
...why I look at him and see the person that I love everything about