Hero

So here is the dilemma.

A life entire, dedicated to helping others simply because
it seemed like a good idea.
Nothing else that seemed like purpose,
nothing else to point towards a particular
direction, or to show the way
to destiny.
And so a choice was made, to help any that seemed to need it.
Walking along, wandering the world and
offering assistance along the way, to those who asked,
and even to those that didn't.
No issues there.
There was strength enough within, to do so, and
it seemed like a pretty good idea.

But strength isn't the dilemma.

Courage is...something you learn,
some would say.
Honesty, for instance, takes courage.
One could learn to be a liar, or learn to live a life, honest.
Courage is, something you hold on to,
draw strength from. Something that...
seems like a good idea.
But good idea or not, how much courage
does it take to
give your life for something?
For someone...
for the world?

And this, is my dilemma.

Through courage and strength, help was always given, yet
how could that be if first it...
wasn't given to me?
Those that came, those that went
(by their own choice or not)
had always given help
freely. And in some ways, this is what led to the
want to give it back...
to the world.

Does destiny always require so much courage?

To follow through would help
everyone. Yet,
at the same time, with it gone
no other help could be given
in the future.
To follow through would mean
there is no future.
(Not for I)
To follow through would take
courage, and
courage is seeming harder to follow through with
by the second.

So to deal with this dilemma...

Courage is honesty, and...
honest is courage.
I honestly want to help,
honestly want to do my best, but
the only way is to give
(or be willing to give)
everything.
Honesty is courage and,
so far I've had enough.
And giving to help, well...
it seems like a good idea.

So, that was my dilemma.
Seems easy enough to solve.