Dear E

I'm sorry that I'm different. I'm sorry I'm the same. I'm sorry that I'm wild. I'm sorry that I cut. I'm sorry that I started cutting. I'm sorry I stopped cutting. I'm sorry I waste your money. I'm sorry none of the medication ever works. I'm sorry I make you worry. I'm sorry that my eyeliner is too thick. I'm sorry that my teeth aren't white. I'm sorry that my hair isn't silk. I'm sorry that I pierced my bellybutton. I'm sorry it got infected. I'm sorry about those doctors trips. I'm sorry I tried to kill myself. I'm sorry I didn't succeed. I'm sorry I'm so lonely. I'm sorry my grades are terrible. I'm sorry I'm not smart enough. I'm sorry I broke your heart. I'm sorry I'm breaking your heart. I'm sorry I trusted you. I'm sorry I sold my soul to you. I'm sorry I don't have enough faith. I'm sorry that I trusted anyone. I'm sorry that I can't be at your side. I'm sorry that I can't make it all go away. I'm sorry that it's so hard. I'm sorry that I want to pierce things. I'm sorry that I want tattoos. I'm sorry I forgot to take my medications. I'm sorry for snapping at you. I'm sorry for taking my problems out on you. I'm sorry I write such morbid poetry. I'm sorry I'm such a cam whore. I'm sorry that I'm always tired. I'm sorry that I never help out. I'm sorry that I was in love. I'm sorry that I am in love. I'm sorry I'm not ticklish. I'm sorry that I bring down the mood. I'm sorry that I put my problems on you. I'm sorry that I hate myself. I'm sorry that I'm so cold. I'm sorry that I hate stupid people. I'm sorry that I want to kill certain people. I'm sorry for my hateful remarks. I'm sorry for my sarcasm. I'm sorry for my obsessions. I'm sorry I'm so naive. I'm sorry I'm so screwed up. I'm sorry I'm such a little girl. I'm sorry that I brag. I'm sorry that I hate everyone. I'm sorry that I love everyone.

I'm just...sorry...