Why She Cries

April 16, 2007

The sorrow consumes her

Tears fill her tired eyes

How long will this go on?

Feels like forever

Her mind protests

Tries to tell her she is worth something

To think positive

It tries and hopes in vain

Tears slip down her cheeks

Her eyes overflowing

She cries silently in grief

Not willing to give herself away

She cries for her loss

The loss of her friend

Her other half

The one she misses like no other

She cries for the friends she has now

Those she holds dear

Not willing to let go

Part of her not wanting to hold on

She cries for herself

For the shame she fills

The hurt, the guilt

Wishes the pain would all go away

She can’t make herself stop now

Can’t stop the tears from falling

They flow in rivers down her face

Unyielding to her want

Finally she stops

Emptiness consumes her

She’s numb inside now

Feels nothing

Life goes on

A while before she breaks down again

Before she cries again

It’s harder every time

Sometimes the tears refuse to come

That’s when it hurts the most

When she needs to cry

But can’t

She cries to stay alive

To know that she’s not hollow

With nothing on the inside

That it’s possible to feel something

But eventually something snaps

And her eyes fill once again

With tears unshed

The blissful hurt returns

Ashamed at her behavior

No reason for the tears to fall

Refuses to let others in

But even she doesn’t know why she cries