What is this agony

Worse than heartache?

This agony

That twists my heart

And makes me weep

When I dare to breathe

And think of you?

Can love hurt more

Than heartache?

What a delightful suffering!

I am so bound to you

I cannot move

Without bringing

Acute longing upon me.

So long have I despaired

Bemoaning the dark side of love

Thinking all pain was bad.

But this pain,

This pain

Brings me closer

To you.

I never want to be free

From the pain

And weight

Of love

Even if it is not you

Who I am

In love with.

I want to know this suffering

Forever

With as many people

Who are as

Masochistic

As I

Have decided to be.