ice water rushes over my stomach

I said it.

I said it

and I meant it

“its over, I can’t do this, I’m tired”

“okay”

okay?

okay?!

I just ended everything I’ve stood for

believed in

for the past ten months

and you just say okay

all those declarations of devotion

announcements of your adoration

catapult through my mind

closely followed by another batch of ice water

my body’s cold

glacier cold

but my eyes are hot

stinging

burning

they’re bleeding

they feel like they’re bleeding

they are bleeding

they’re bleeding!

like my heart should be

bleeding.

but I can’t seem to get past all the anger

the resentment

the knowledge that either you stopped caring

or started lying

long before I noticed

you either stopped being or become someone

completely different

full of rage and lies

and screams and sighs

and of words and words and words

that mean nothing

but I said it

and I meant it

it’s done

okay?

…okay?