am I doing the right thing

breaking my own heart

so that he may grow stronger

burning my own eyes

so that he may see clearly

drowning in my sorrows

so that he may keep his head above water

I don’t know

am I doing the right thing

I’ve never felt like this for a soul in this world

never needed someone so deeply

am I doing the right thing

severing the ties like a mother to a child

hoping he will grow

independent, mature, thoughtful

hoping he will grow

without me

is that what I want

for him to find himself

for him to find his true self

without me

for him to finally realize that he is strong enough

smart enough

to stand on his own two feet

that he doesn’t need me

so right here, right now

I need to hear the truth

you have to answer me

am I doing the right thing