The Mold
its funny how you can reach a sudden moment where life twists into some new strange mold and you find yourself slowly trying to accomodate yourself in this new mold.
its simply a true moment to come to. the moment you realize that life as it was just...isnt anymore. and you know that Changes have to be made, once you reach those few seconds in time where realizations of a new life come to your knowledge.
in a beautiful twist of fate things start to make sense and you know, that this strange new mold, is something you want to be part of. this new set of things, though sometimes hard to get through, though they bring harsh realities and pain, are for the best. You know that to feel them is to understand that you are human and that you deserve this. this change creates in you a beautiful person, a mature person. because all in all this change is maturity.
this change brings and is knowledge, it is understanding, it is a sense of security, and it is a wild combination of trust, and alertness, and a belief that whatever is to come will be, what is to come is okay, what is to come is to be achieved and loved because it is what will be. it simply Is

at this moment your world is your own in a whole different, entirely unselfish way, you learn that life is worth living it as you please but there are consequences,
every action has a reaction.
and all those things u wanted to posseses you let go, because you realize how fickle it was to love such a thing. and you begin to love as if anything itself was born of you. and you want everything not because of some foolish fickle affection, but because it is something you want to love.

suddenly you feel as if you want to take up and gather the world and protect and secure all but you also know that you cant. it is knowing that you could do so much but you cant do everthing.

this moment when you reach maturity is a moment to charish, because from then on, you will make mistakes but you will learn to not let mistakes make you.
your wrongs will take different meanings. and you will know that in the long run, all happens for a reason.

and at this moment the most important lesson you grasp is accepting accepting the consequences, accepting the truth, accepting life itself.
accepting that things will not go as planed but accepting the outcome anyways.

all these things combined can make you fit that perfect mold. they can make you great, but used wrong these things can defeat you, as they have so many others in your world, you will watch some fall as you comfortably snuggle is this new design,and you will know, they just didnt find the right mold, or they tried to fit in others and you will see them, you will see that they had the right mold in front of them all along and because they didnt accept, they didnt love, they didnt learn, they never reached the happyness that you knew they could have.

its is here when you know you have reached yourself, you have found the person inside that best is you. and in this moment of extreme emotions and pity and all other feelings in one, you fit.
you fit in this little nitch that you have found. and you conform to this new shape.
and it is because you fit that you know. its all gonna be okay.
this is the process of finding your mold, of fitting and realizing that change is to come for the best.
this is maturing.