Infatuation

My hands search the phone feverishly

My hears strained to hear your voice

The distance makes my heart feel heavy

Despite all this I still have a choice

Whether to be or not to be

You asked if I love you

But I replied with a hesitant no

I was afraid that I do

And I was afraid that I’ll lose you

It’s only been a day

Yet I miss you so ever much

Since we’ve parted ways

How I’ve longed for your touch

Now I’m down and cold

I’ve no idea what I’m doing or going

Now regretting, wishing if I was bold

Perhaps now I wouldn’t be suffering

Even after all you did

Acting cold, heartless and not loyal

Gosh I’m too weak against you, git

Wondered why I forgave you and your betrayal

Now you say you still love me

Despite having her already

Do you know how much that hurts?

I put up a cheerful façade

So that I wouldn’t be a bother

Yet I’m breaking on the inside

Little by little, I’m disappearing

Gosh, I hate you

Infatuation sucks…