Torn Between Secrets

Chapter 2

Why is this happening?

Okay, I’m back with an all-new chapter baby!!! And I just realized how conceited I sound…oh well, I have that right! Cuz I’m a teenager and pretty damn awesome!!! Jk, I’m not like that. I’m actually pretty laid back…as you’ll find out…though I’m a little weird too, if you can handle that, we’ll get along just fine…if not…I’LL KILL YOU!!!

Jk again…

Okay, now, on with the chappie! Let’s go!

Why is the happening to me? This cant be right. Why is god picking on me? Wait, I don’t even believe in god.

Then why?

She’s going to beat me up. She’s finally got her chance…she’s always wanted to beat me up. I can sense it. She hates me, as I’ve said before, and I know I don’t stand a chance against her one on one, I’m weak and squishy. And well, she’s not.

But she doesn’t move, she stands there, like she’s waiting for something. So I swallow my nerves and speak.

“I could say the same thing about you, Bobbi…”

God I hope I sound more confident then I feel. But maybe that wasn’t the best thing to say; now she’ll have a reason to hit me…

This is sad huh?

The one person I want to be with most is the one person that scares me most…it’s like some bad Shakespeare remake.

She’s my sad bliss, my evil delight, and my heartless love…

Now I’m getting sappy…oh goodie…

“Yeah you could, though it’s not like I care…” she said, shrugging. I breathe in deeply.

“Yeah…” it’s the only thing I can think of to say…and you know what it does? Makes me look like an idiot…why do I keep embarrassing myself?

“Where ya headed?” she asked, walking closer to me. My entire body tenses and I can feel the heat rising in my face. She stops about three feet from me and waits for my answer.

I breathe in deeply and exhale, “ I don’t really know, maybe walk to Sites or something…” she blinks a few times.

I shift my weight and look down, I’m fairly sure she thinks I’m intimidated. Which I am…

“Calm down. C’mon, I’ll give ya a ride.”

My heart leaps into my throat and a swallow hard. Unable to speak, I simply shake my head. She smirks again and turns; I clutch the strap of my book bag and follow.

…xxx…

I climb out of the car as carefully as I could and walk up to the doors of the gas station. I can feel her eyes watching me as I do so and that just makes me self-conscious.

The little bell dings as I walk in the door and the cashier looks up. He’s old and he looks like a mean guy, with his crazy eyebrows and his mustache thingy. I nod politely and continue walking over to the glass drink container fridge thingamajig.

After picking out my water, I decide I want to buy something for Bobbi, but I’m not entirely sure what she likes. So I grab a Mountain Dew and walk back over to the counter.

Everyone likes Mountain Dew, right?

I quickly pay crazy-brow dude and leave the store. I get back in that car as quickly as I can and hand the bottle to Bobbi. She takes it and looks at me.

“I got this for you, I hope you like it…”

She nods and shifts back in her seat so she can drive. I closed he door and shifted as well, keeping a close eye on her. I don’t know if she notices the looks, if she does she doesn’t say anything.

This is what I wanted right? To be with her. Though I still cant help but feel that there’s something amiss here. Like I’m missing something.

Nervously, I toy with the lid of my water and continue to watch her casually.

I didn’t even notice we were back at the school until she stopped the car. I looked up at her.

She didn’t say anything; she just reached in the glove compartment and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. She lights it up and takes a drag and that’s when I decide to ruin whatever type of moment we were having and say,

“Bobbi, I thought you hated me…” oooh, smooth one…

“What gave you that idea?” she asked, flicking some of the ash out the window.

“Well, just that we’ve never gotten along and uh, oh yeah, the fact that you’ve said that you hate me.”

“Well,” she exhaled a stream of smoke. “That was when I thought you were a goodie…Now I see you’re not so much.”

“Cause I skip?”

“Well not everyone does.”

I look away and remain silent, and then I notice that she’s holding her cigarette out to me. “Wanna drag?”

I stare at it a moment and then take it.

Wait. Didn’t I just tell that guy in the parking lot that I didn’t smoke? Then why am I taking this from her? Is that how weak I am? I don’t even like smoking. It’s gross.

I bring the cancer stick to my lips and think, “hey, this was against Bobbi’s lips as well. It’s like an indirect kiss.” then I inhale.

The smoke feels funny and hot. I don’t like it, but at least I manage to get it down without dieing. Well, or so I thought.

I hand it back to Bobbi right when the coughing fit starts up. That’s when I make a fool of myself.

She hits me on the back to help me out, which it does, kinda, but I still cant help but blush like crazy when it finally dies down enough that I can look at her.

She laughs and tosses the cigarette out the window. “Well, I guess you don’t smoke then, ya re-re. Why’d ya take it then?”

I remain quiet and stare at her hand, which is still on my back. She follows my gaze and notices that she’s still touching me, jerking her hand away she looks outside. Not noticing my blush.

“Whatever.” she says, taking a swig of her Mountain Dew. She glances at the clock radio in the dashboard and reaches for the ignition.

“We should head back now, the bell will ring soon.” she says, turning the car off and opening the door. I do the same and climb out; grabbing my book bag I close the door and fall into step beside her.

I can’t help but watch her as she walks. So confidant. I wish I could be like her.

We walk in the doors just as the final bell rings, signaling the end of the school day. She turns back to me,

“Well, see ya tomorrow Jessica…” and she’s gone, running off down the hallway, probably to meet up with her boyfriend, what‘s-his-name.

I’m still lost in the fact that she knows my name.

“Jess?”

I turn to see Alyssa, but I call her Al, she’s standing there, book bag over her shoulder and looking at me. She reminds me of a bird. And I mean that in the best way possible too. She’s always the first one here after school. We all meet up and walk out to the bus stop.

“Hey Al. what’s up?”

She shrugs and I toss my bag up on top of the window ledge so I can wait for the others.

Sabrina appears at the stairs and I wave at her brightly. She returns the wave and bounces over to us.

Next is Ashley, she doesn’t ride the bus but she still meets up with us everyday. She’s the only one of my friends I’ve ever had a crush on, though she’s as straight as they come and doesn’t even like that fact that me and Al are bi, so it’s not like there’s any chance between us. But still.

There’s some hugging and Mr. YumYum joins us. He’s Sabrina’s boyfriend and he’s like a big brother to me. His actual name is Steven, but I call him yum and he calls me Goop. So it’s all good.

We head down the hall so we can make the bus in time, but I can’t help but glance over my shoulder hoping for one last glimpse of Bobbi.

Why is this happening to me?

Okay, so that’s chapter 2! Wh00t for me! I’ve started the little start of friendship between Bobbi and Jessica (aka me) maybe that friendship will turn into something more hmm?

Hopefully…

Well, lemme know whatcha think Kay? I really would like some reviews! Love you guys! Bai Bai!!!