When I need you the most,

You're never there.

It makes me feel that,

You do not care.

All that I want,

Is a little support.

Instead you ignore me,

Like it's some kind of sport.

Today I am having,

A truly bad day.

And I had just hoped,

You'd stop and say “Hey,

What's bothering you,

Why are you so down?”

And maybe that could,

have removed my small frown.

But instead you go on,

as if nothing is wrong.

And make my day worse,

Make my day long.

Because today is a day,

I've been dreading of late.

Today I found in you,

Something that I hate.

I hate how I pour out,

My heart and my soul.

To try to break through,

And it's taking it's toll.

I hate how you insult me,

Every day neverending.

And I take them without question,

No circumstances pending.

I hate how you love,

To see others in pain.

I'll just ask you this;

What do you stand to gain?

I hate how you don't trust me,

No matter what I say.

And how you think I'm so stupid,

And you're better in every way.

Let my words be my proof now,

That I'm better than thou.

I can write circles around you,

Lets think “what else now?”

I am better at paintball,

And soccer, that too,

I'm a much kinder person.

AND I'M ALWAYS TRUE!

One day you told me,

That you truly cared.

And I was content,

My heart it just flaired.

But that was a big lie,

Or so it may seem,

Because today you betrayed me,

You made my head steam!

I wanted to thrash out,

With all of my might.

Let my words just rain down,

And make you take flight!

I wanted to humiliate,

You in every way.

Degrade you just like you,

Do to me everyday!

But I held back my fury,

And hung low my head.

Pushed you away,

And hurt myself instead.

Because when my bad day is over,

I know I'll recall,

The good things you've done,

Remember them all.

The way that you hold me,

So tight in your arms.

And make me feel safe,

Away from all harm.

I know that at the end,

Of my very bad day.

I'll love you more than you know,

In every single way.

And as the last thing,

That I've discovered of you,

I hate how I love you...

No matter what you do.