Friend

Dear angel to whom
I pour my heart out
I can't help it now
I just need to pout

If I don't fume
The pain will just mount
The days 'till my death
I'd continue to count

I wonder right now
Does she really care
Or should I just leave
On the back of a mare

It all goes back
To that one fateful day
When I had met him
And now I must pay

He is a good friend
It's not all his fault
But now she ignores me
Like he's her new cult

It's pretty much normal
How he and I fight
When she takes his side
She takes with her the light

She'll always blame me
Because he's always right
And she never sees
I'll blow away like a kite

I have pictures of us
But they are just film
I wish she still loved me
Like she'll always love him

Doesn't she realize
She's my dear and close friend
The rift formed between us
I wish it would mend

They all think I'm happy
But they never find
That the nails I paint black
Are the first of the signs

Last night I had slept
With more cuts on my wrist
I wish I had vanished
To become part of the mist

At least then I could
Stay out of their way
And maybe watch them
In the wet month of May

And then maybe I'd see
Their eyes filled with light
They'd both be much happier
Without me there to fight

So angel kill me
And leave them to love
Until they are called
To the lands up above

And then angel, please
On their judgement day
If they get into Heaven
To rest I will lay

At least I'll have known
That if I wasn't there
They wouldn't have met
For the other they might've not cared

So at least with my life
I did one good thing
On the day of their wedding
I'll let my soul sing

And maybe she'll hear me
And know that I cared
Even though with me
Her love she could not share

Dear angel who loves me
Whatever may be
Ask God to forgive her
For when she hurt me