Did you love me then,
When he put the ring on my finger
And kissed my hand?
Did you love me then?
Or was it always this?
Was it always so translucent?
Was it ever any more than a fake desire?
Was I ever any more than another trophy?
Did you love me then,
When you swore we’d never part
And promised me the world?
Did you love me then?
Or have I always known
That you never loved me after all?
Did I love you then,
When I pledged my heart to you
And took your hand in mine?
Did I love you then?
Or have you always been only a filler,
Someone to deceive me, to show me I wasn’t really so alone?
Has it ever been any more than a longing that we could not feel,
A paradise that we could never teach our hearts to crave?
Did I love you then?
Or was it always this?