Waiting

I stand here, dancing in a whirling battle

where are you?

My arms flow, the sinew of my limbs writhing in agitation

what drives me onward?

My mind soars beyond the heights of the stars

I am exploring the destinies of angels

but I’m all alone.

My battle is an infinite struggle

I seek definition and hope

running towards ecstasy through the darkness before me

how can I reach home without you?

My heart cries out in shivers of pain,

slivers of loneliness flying in shattered arrays of dreams

each shard a different fantasy

with a pathetic tragedy ending in tears

my eyes are clear but my heart cries out to the darkness,

the only comfort I can reach since you have departed from me

the wraiths of the moon and shadows torment my every step

I dodge their sweeping strikes only to feel the sting of a thrusting knife

it pierces my stomach in a spray of pain

I can’t find you

I’m seeking you

my battle is my journey to find you

I can see you suddenly, the stars are your companions

the light is your angelic companion

do you notice I’m even missing?

Do you notice my absence?

Pitched into the abyss,

I’m swallowed whole

rancid fumes overwhelm me

never-ending refractions of infinite darkness blind my eyes

I can’t see you anymore

the tears have blown my vision, have drowned my breath

ever searching, never finding

why aren’t you looking for me?

Don’t you realize I’m no longer beside you?

I’m attacked again

my determination is renewed once more

even if my soul is lost without my guide

I will not surrender what is left of my aching body

sparks of lightning rage in arcing pain to cleave my enemies

I call fire from the sky to bring suffering into the coldness of my pursuers

forever they dog my steps, though I seek freedom

I follow in your wake, I see your steps

bitter cold attempts to paralyze my movements

but each step brings me closer, I know it does

I love you

blood streams in deathly rivulets from my side

my clothes are no longer dry

but are permanently stained in crimson

blood trickles into my eyes

when was my forehead cut?

I can’t feel my fingers

my toes are no longer responding to my commands

I twirl the elegant battle dance around the wraiths

despite my injuries

I am determined to find you, to catch you

my elusive, ethereal beauty

I love you

life runs from me

I am flying to the stars

finally

I can find you

I will catch you

look

my wings have come

they are covered in blood

I am weak

so weak

but I can fly

to the heavens, I soar towards your guiding light

I love you

my last breath escapes

finally, I’ve found you

I love you