|Do I Wan't To Be Saved?
Author: Red Tears Black Wings PM
The title says it all...Rated: Fiction T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Words: 477 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 06-10-07 - Status: Complete - id: 2374299
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I once had the love they talk about
And it was pure bliss
But now he has left me
And I wonder what did I do?
Did I say the wrong thing?
Was it wrong to wish that I could meet him?
So what if all we had to talk over was MSN?
It may have just been a computer screen he was reading from
But all the words he read were mine
And somehow they must have meant nothing.
Yet I poured all my heart into them
And I told him all
Yet nothing did I get
But a fouls happiness.
Now I distrust people
And can't find it in myself to trust others
He may have left me in a wreck
He may have made me sadder then ever
He may have helped give me depression
And yet somehow I can't stop thinking of him.
I can't stand those love songs
That say how great things are
'Cause I find it all so fake
And wish for that love again
We may have been far
We may have only had a computer
But somehow I really thought that I could have something
Good in this life.
Something that made me feel like it was all worth something
But no I will never get that any time soon.
Even when listening to music
My most loved of all shelters
I still feel the despair creeping up into my mind
And somehow at the end of every night I find myself
Crying and lost.
Then I think of all the people that have help
And I see that two people have pulled me so far
Into the ground that I may never come back
'Mother' that person has helped to send me so far away
'Nathan' my shining light helped to pull me so far
And these two people have cased me all this pain
And I'm still in pain.
What do I have to keep me going?
I have what I can find
I can't really tell my friends what I feel
I really can't find it in myself to trust anyone
I'm so sorry
For any that are really trying to help
But I can't pull myself up
I don't even know if I want to be pulled up.
So I will remain here
In the bottom of the pit
And continue to fall and sink deeper
Until I can find a way up
Until I can find the will to want to go on
I like to think that some day
I will smile with out the sadness behind it
Laugh and not feel bad after
Not just borrow all this happiness from other
And keep my own.
If I can't pull myself up
Do I really want to be saved?