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Fallen Angels: Part Fifteen

Winter

Miekel's POV

It's the season they called winter, and I've never felt so cold in my life. All the other winters I've been here have been warmed with the thought of Julian coming to hold me... but this one, this one was filled with the questions of why couldn't he remember me? Would he remember me in time?

I'm still outside, in a pair of jeans, black furry boots and a matching black coat. For a family that never had a lot of money, they always bought me the nicest things. My neck was covered with a red scarf and my head and ears were warmed with a snow-flake pattered red and white hat. My hands gloved with a pair of black gloves. I was outside already, doing my morning prayers after breakfast.

They still kept Julian in the barn, and it made me a feel sad for him because it was most likely cold in there. Once I finished up, I decided to take him something warm to drink. Even if he was still an Angel... he had to be cold. I know I would be.

The walk never gets better, always feeling like the walk of Death for me... my heart and stomach jitters hoping he will remember me. I try to keep that hope very limited, especially because if Father meant for him to forget.. then he would remain forgetful.

I sigh as I push the barn door open once again, it was a morning ritual now that he was here. I was the one that always brought him anything, at least until it was dark.. when it was dark, he was allowed to come outside.

"Julian?" I question as I walk through the barn with a container in my hand. It contained hot honey tea. It was something Julian seemed to enjoy the most out of all the drinks he had while he was here.

I give a soft breath, and shiver. It was cold in here... I could see my breath more clearly in here than I could outside. I walked to wear Julian usually was and the hay I walked on crunched under my boots. I call out for him again and when I reach the spot he's usually in, I don't see him. I hold the container close to me, trying to keep it warm as it kept my hands warm too. I give a small pout as I hear someone moving above me, then a low voice whispering,

"Up here."

I look up at the raised platform of the barn. Hay was scattered all over and a large mink blanket was about to fall off the platform before Julian's hand grabbed it and pulled it up. I slowly walk over to the ladder and climb it, one hand holding the tea close to my body the other on the ladder for support.

"What.. are you doing up here?" I ask slowly as I make it up and then slide on my knees some so I can eventually sit down across from him.

"It's colder down there, than it is up here..." Julian's wings were wrapped tightly around him and he'd take the mink blanket and wrap it tightly around him. I watch and my heart hurts for him, he was freezing out here.

"Here..." I scoot a bit closer to the other and hand him the container, he looks at it and reaches out to take it with one large hand. "It's honey tea... It'll warm you up a bit."

Julian smiled at him as he took it under the blanket, open the top and bring it up to his lips. He set the top on the ground as he took a gulp from it and then gave a hissing sound as it burned his tongue. I smile as I watch him give a slight groan of happiness.

"It's never cold like this in Heaven, I wasn't expecting this at all.."

I nod, "I know.. my first year here... I shook all the time, and had several layer of clothes on...The thought I was going to die." I gave a slight laugh as I sit back and watch him stare a me. He seem to be staring at me with concentration and I get a little tense and look down.

"What was the name Father gave you?" he asked me so abruptly that I jerked my head up to look at his eyes.

"W..What?"

"The name he gave you... I know it can't be Angel.. he's more creative than that."

I'm surprised he ask me a personal question, and the hurt in my face must have been seen because he looked down into his tea and took another sip. I wasn't going to tell him... I wasn't going to tell him anything until he remembered me. Wasn't love suppose to stand strong through anything? Was his love weak for me? Was he weak?

Tears start to cloud my vision and I look away and wipe them away, I'm so angry with him. He promised he would love me forever.. and here he was...

"He named me.." I choke up a bit and look down, "Noel.." and then I look at him and it seemed he accepted that. I almost want to scoff. That wasn't even creative. What he said surprised me.

"Don't lie to me..."

"What?!" I said to quickly, but continued. "What do you mean don't lie to you? You don't even .. know me!"

My tears spill faster and my heart hurts and I know I need to leave, but my body won't budge. He puts the cap down on the tea and sets it aside.

"You're not a Noel...My body .. my heart is trying to tell me your name...and I can feel the lie you speak seep out of you.."

I get up and wipe my eyes quickly. "I.. I need to leave. I'll bring your dinner in a couple hours.."

But ... he didn't let me leave. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back down onto the floor. I fall against the floor with a thud and the pain subsides quickly because he pulls me into his arms and wraps his wings and the blanket around us. I can feel him nuzzling against my hair, taking in my scent and I want to cry harder. I bite my lip harshly to hold it back and I'm trembling in his arms.

"I need you to stay..." he whispers lightly, "I won't ever remember you if you don't answer my questions without lying...I won't ever remember you if you only come to give me my meals... I won't ever remember you in time.. and I feel... like you're someone important..."

Julian's POV

He calms down after sometime, and it gets so warm in the blanket that I watch his eyes close and him drift off. I give him some credit to try and stay awake...he kept jerking and only making himself blush out of embarrassment. It was actually... kind of cute...

I lean back against the wall and keep my arms around him.. he hadn't said anything after I spoke about remembering him. All he did was tremble, bite his lip, and squeeze his scarf so tightly that its probably wrinkled now.

I take the time as he sleeps to look at him more closely. One of my hands coming up to pull the others hat off so I could run my fingers through the silk black strands. My fingers carefully running down the others jawline and then slowly running under his chin. I could feel the heat radiating off him from wearing that scarf and jacket. But I don't move to take it off.. It would require to much moving and I didn't want to wake him up. I just wanted to watch him...

My hand slowly runs down his arm and his fingers twitch in response and I watch his head gently tilt to the left and tuck it under my neck. He seemed to fit me so perfectly... no position he had moved in through his nap made me have to move to become comfortable. I let my hands take his and intertwine our fingers. He responds by holding mine back and I life it slowly. Slowly up so I could look at his hands... they looked gentle, soft, beautiful. I slowly spread his hands against mine and look at the elegant fingers, and the perfectly manicured nails. He couldn't have kept up with that if all he does is pray...

His hands... were to beautiful. I pulled the hand closer to me and press my cheek into it. Soft. I close my eyes.. and remember this feeling. The scent of the other... I can remember those feelings, but not the person.

It fustrated me and I gripped his hand tightly, making him give a soft whimper and hide his face into my neck even more. I open my eyes and loosen the grip. His other hand is crossed in his own lap. Just as beautiful, and elegant as the one I was holding.

"Julian..." he whispered lightly and I froze, it was that whisper he heard all the time. The 'I love yous' that ran through his head non-stop at night. "It's cold.."

I give a light smile as I realized I had to spread my wings and the blankets to see his hand. I close my wings around him again after I set his hand down, mine still holding it.

"Sorry." I mumble lightly and close my eyes.

Why couldn't I remember him... why couldn't I remember someone that seemed so close to me.. why couldn't I remember someone my heart... wanted?

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I had drifted off and woke up to Angel clutching to my shirt and whimpering. His body was shaking once again and he seemed to have a hard time breathing. I sit up, my wings parting to let the cool air brush into the warmth we've created. "Angel..?" My hands run up his back, he had turned sideways against my chest and curled up into a fetal position, or something like that.

"Julian.." he gasped, but his eyes weren't open. I move the blanket from around him as sweat gathered on his forehead. My hand came up to wipe it away and I slowly realized it wasn't sweat on his cheeks but tears. "Angel?" my heart hurts as he's crying for me, whimpering, shaking.. gripping.

"I... I..." he was stuttering, and his breathing would stop and go and when I shook him lightly, he wouldn't open his eyes. I pulled him close, but not to tight, and nuzzle his cheek lightly. Whispering softly into his ear, "Calm down.. Angel.." but he doesn't. It seems to only get worse and I run my fingers through his hair as he's sobbing now, and I just don't know what to do.

I tuck my face into his neck and then let my lips kiss his neck softly, and it seemed that triggered something. Because his eyes snapped open and he pushed me away. "No.. no!" he was yelling at me as he stumbled up, and must have been disoriented because he was babbling random sentences. "Not..sinner..." was first, followed with, "Help.." "I love him.." "Wings..." "Julian..." "Father..." and when he got some sense back and saw me staring at him with wide eyes.

"I.. have to go... pray. What time is it? I missed my praying time? That's why I had this... dream.." and he turned to walk right off the platform.

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