The Things I've Said
May.21.2007

How I've said before
I find myself too far indebted
Too intrigued by circumstances
By images, by beauty
To become part of it myself
I wonder where that puts me
As I sit, content to watch
Content to breathe instead of run
It's sad and perfect and yet
There just has to be a balance

Through the corner of gray
Where blue meets black and turns to white
Those colors of my eyes where I see you smirking
And knowing, that I'm just where I ought to be
And I feel like parading
Whipping about lost curls and glaring, but
Instead I ignore and I smile and I breathe
I know your worth, and the agitation of my poor patience
I see myself holding out
And knowing, that you're only out to bother me

How I've said before
That I hate and stomp and even sob
In times before courage, between pity and ignorance
Right amongst old selfishness
I don't dare to say I'm anything more
Learning to survive is a funny thing, and
Even more in such a social environment
I don't dare say I'm a good person
Though I dare say some have gotten worse
So in comparison I conspire that maybe
I have the potential to keep on